I do understand the Trinity and the indwelling of the Holy Spirit but something new has emerged and I must change how I think of this personage. I understand that the Holy Spirit is the LORD and that He has all the attributes therein but today my understanding is deeper still, though it may not be heard clearly in my words. I see Him without substance but He is an individual, with the ability to love, who has intelligence, desires, and feelings; can see, hear and speak; who has knowledge, sympathy, and can rejoice but can also be grieved deeply.
I have been questioning why some days I can hear Him clearly and many other days there is only silence and I questioned myself today, "Have I hushed my dear friend, my companion into a hurt silence, because I have wounded 'His heart'?" Yes, I think it is so.... my doubts, my unbelief, my lack of acknowledging His presence would be enough to silence Him. I think He is a gentleman too; He will not go where He is not asked.
The Holy Spirit is all knowing.... He knows what I am thinking, there is no fooling Him. He is ever present in my life. Yet, I cry out to Jesus who has gone to heaven and ignore the Godhead who lives within me. The one who bares witness to the truth. He is exactly like Jesus.... spirit of Jesus, Just as Jesus is exactly like the Father.
I remember reading a book by A.W. Tozier many years ago and he said, we should know the Holy Spirit as well as we know our own hand. I never forgot it but I did not allow it to change me.
I find I have been grieving my dear friend .... it is similar to how I would be grieved for a beloved friend who neglected me, doubted me, turned their back on me.... but He so much more than a friend, He is my LORD and I sin against Him and refuse to obey Him.
HE grieves because of His great love for me!
Today a new journey has begun... as I understand His presence, His character. Jesus's character while walking the Earth was demonstrating the Spirit! How extraordinarily simple it is really. He is most friendly, most tender, most kind, most loving; He has the most beautiful character, and that character is one and the same with the Father.
As the days draw nearer to the LORDs return, our dependence upon the Holy Spirit must increase. (John 16:1-15) My prayer is that His presence will make my soul strong and that I will not fear the wrath of man. I pray that courage would grow within me as the Holy Spirit demonstrates our Jesus to the world through us. The Holy Spirit will convict the world concerning sin and righteousness and judgment will follow. The world will be convicted by its treatment of Christ-followers, as the Holy Spirit uses us to bear witness of JESUS.
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